November 1st, 2014 marks six months of me being at home jobless (for lack of a better word). May 1st 2014 marked the start of a new phase, Krupa without a job. I have moments where I can't believe its already been 6 months.
Lazing around in PJs all day, having a relaxed morning and nice hot lunches, all the time for catching up on reading, more time to blog, time to do more product reviews and get the cleaning done. I would try a new recipe every week. I would have a brilliant day every day with time to achieve everything I want to and more. I'd live the ideal life at home where I would not be too busy nor too bored. Pfftttt!!
What sucks the most is the lack of a routine. I loved getting up, getting ready and going to school. The routine of staring at my wardrobe every night in search of something to wear for the next day was extremely frustrating but strangely comforting. Monday morning blues for me came into existence only if I had marks submission. On the whole I am a creature of habit and going to work meant having that set routine through the day. Sometimes weekends would be irksome due to the lack of a schedule. Being home meant creating a routine. This was just frustrating. I would wake up extremely enthusiastic about my plan for the day but by 10am I was back to my old student ways, namely falling asleep on my books, watching endless reruns on tv or worst, channel surfing even though there is absolutely nothing on tv to watch.
I've come to realise that I am not as self disciplined as I liked to believe I am. I'm just as easily distracted as the next person and go into these moments of " What is the purpose of this?". Teaching gave me a purpose. I studied better when I had to teach. (I can hear some of you out there thinking, so why don't you teach someone and you will learn better. I already started teaching biochem). Also it was so much easier when they just gave you a time table that you had to follow in school.
Time. That's the other thing I wanted to talk about. Everyone thinks that being at home means you have more time. Wrong! There is always something to do. I really have no idea how time goes in a day. I always have people telling me- but you're at home, you have all the time in the world. Trust me, time is the most elusive thing ever. More so when you are home doing a dozen things and trying to get more done.
Yes I am doing a dozen things besides studying. I am studying as well okay (I know my dadddy will read this and comment that I am not stuyding enough). Multi tasking keeps my brain active and occupied. I know that's the burning question on everyone's mind- What are you doing?
I give a different answer to that question every time but I think the best answer would be, I am keeping busy and learning a lot. I have finally found my balance and what works for me. Details about what I have done so far will be a post of its own.
In short being at home has been an experience in itself. As one of my friend's put it "you have the time to achieve everything you want, just prioritize". It has a been a journey of self discovery (I am discovering that there are things about myself I don't like). It has been relaxing in a way. I am living for myself after a very long time.
My time at home has truly been about "I Me Myself" (and don't mean just this blog.)
Lazing around in PJs all day, having a relaxed morning and nice hot lunches, all the time for catching up on reading, more time to blog, time to do more product reviews and get the cleaning done. I would try a new recipe every week. I would have a brilliant day every day with time to achieve everything I want to and more. I'd live the ideal life at home where I would not be too busy nor too bored. Pfftttt!!
What sucks the most is the lack of a routine. I loved getting up, getting ready and going to school. The routine of staring at my wardrobe every night in search of something to wear for the next day was extremely frustrating but strangely comforting. Monday morning blues for me came into existence only if I had marks submission. On the whole I am a creature of habit and going to work meant having that set routine through the day. Sometimes weekends would be irksome due to the lack of a schedule. Being home meant creating a routine. This was just frustrating. I would wake up extremely enthusiastic about my plan for the day but by 10am I was back to my old student ways, namely falling asleep on my books, watching endless reruns on tv or worst, channel surfing even though there is absolutely nothing on tv to watch.
I've come to realise that I am not as self disciplined as I liked to believe I am. I'm just as easily distracted as the next person and go into these moments of " What is the purpose of this?". Teaching gave me a purpose. I studied better when I had to teach. (I can hear some of you out there thinking, so why don't you teach someone and you will learn better. I already started teaching biochem). Also it was so much easier when they just gave you a time table that you had to follow in school.
Time. That's the other thing I wanted to talk about. Everyone thinks that being at home means you have more time. Wrong! There is always something to do. I really have no idea how time goes in a day. I always have people telling me- but you're at home, you have all the time in the world. Trust me, time is the most elusive thing ever. More so when you are home doing a dozen things and trying to get more done.
Yes I am doing a dozen things besides studying. I am studying as well okay (I know my dadddy will read this and comment that I am not stuyding enough). Multi tasking keeps my brain active and occupied. I know that's the burning question on everyone's mind- What are you doing?
I give a different answer to that question every time but I think the best answer would be, I am keeping busy and learning a lot. I have finally found my balance and what works for me. Details about what I have done so far will be a post of its own.
In short being at home has been an experience in itself. As one of my friend's put it "you have the time to achieve everything you want, just prioritize". It has a been a journey of self discovery (I am discovering that there are things about myself I don't like). It has been relaxing in a way. I am living for myself after a very long time.
My time at home has truly been about "I Me Myself" (and don't mean just this blog.)
5 comments:
Hey Krupa, great post! Irene Hunt once said, "Beautiful hours move so quickly." All the best for your exams!
Nice one krups ... Keep them coming
Thanks Aditi
Thanks Hasan
Very nice post. I am in a similar situation now. Earlier when I used to work, I used work almost 14 hours a day for 6 days a week and still managed to read a book and write a review in my blog almost every week. Paradoxically, now since I have time, I don't have time. I haven't read a new book in three months. Need to catch up.
I see that you are no longer blogging. That is sad...
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